I was just watching sports night, Small town, where Casey and Dana go out on a date. Is that Aaron Sorkin sitting next to casey at the bar?

I heard this quote thing recently. I can't for the ife of me remeber where. But, this is it.
Someone says,
"But, thats not how real love is. It isn't will they, won't they. Until, they do and then live happily ever after."
It was something like that. If anyone has any idea, please let me know. Thanks!

I was almost in two very serious, life-threating car accidents today. And, my own mortality has been slaping me in the face for a week or so. I have found that the truth of the matter is that almost no one really knows me that much at all. That is none, I mean, of my real, actual, day to day friends really understand or have scratched the surface of me. Or, atleast everything that I have gone through or done that has brought me to the here and now and made me in to the person in both. I am unbelieveable close with my dad and there are still more than a few things for pretty early childhood he is completely unaware of. I never really tell people the past. All of my stories and conversations go as far back as when I meet the person I am talking to. Even the people I am closest to, hear only the personal stories in real time. I guess there is no actual resolution to this other than the only person I would talk to about this broke up with me. Awhile ago. And, the honest truth is that I don't want to be with him. I would rather him not be with that whore. But, I miss having that person there. It isn't that I want someone who is willing to listen to the crap but that they honestly want to know you and how you got to be the person they are in love with. I miss that feeling. And I listen to people I know, the ones who bitch about their boyfriends and I am just like "Are you fucking kidding me." Because they are people who truely care about them. All of them. But, the whole "wanting to know how you got there love" is bull. Oh, well. I should have stuck with not having a resolution at all.

So, I just started watching the west wing again. I was just watching 5 votes down. I love when they are all sitting around eating take out and Toby says, "Here it goes." Mandy and CJ start talking about chicken and it is quite funny. But, later Leo forgets his anniversary. So, the next day, he and Margaret are planing a dinner for Leo and his wife so that he can make it up to her. He lists the types of champaign that it can be, Margaret asked which kind he likes and he replies, "I don't drink champaign." because he is an alcoholic. I never really heard that part until now.

Ok, sleep time!

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1. Can you cook?
2. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. Are you Dirty or Clean?
8. Any tattoos and/or piercings
9. Worst habit?

HERE COMES THE FUN ...
1. How did we meet?
2. What's your philosophy on life?
3. Negative or Optimistic?
4. What was your dream growing up?
5. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
6. What was your first impression of me?
7. Tell me one weird fact about you:
8. What's your favorite memory of us?
9. Have you ever kept anything from me?
10. What do you think of me as a person?
11. Do you think I'm sane or insane?
12. Would you cry for me if I died?
13.. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
14. If you could change anything about me, would you?
15. How do you fall asleep?
16. Ever gotten angry with me?
17. Would you go on a blind date if I set you up?
18. If you had one day to live, what would you do?
19. A million bucks... what would you do with it?
20. What is your worst fear?
21. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
22. Can you sing or dance?
23. In one word, how would you describe me? Be honest!
24. Will you repost this so I can fill it out?
25. Can I unscreen this?

Ok, so I am watching The West Wing for the first time in months. I didn't realize how much I missed Josh/Donna banter. It is so cute. It is so simple but yet.

So. It has been a really long time but I am just going to jump right in. I am in an ethics class with a professor that is completely awesome. But, we have just gotten into the christian philosophers. We keep hearing about what these dudes are calling "sins of the flesh." I am just not understanding why people have this heavy layer of shame attached to everything of the body. I am not suggesting lack of emotion or attachment to our bodies. It just seems like there is a huge window between the two. We have come to one Irish philosopher who sounds different from the rest. I wish I could remember her name. But, she talked of the body being god's gift.
There was this guy I was hanging out with. The insult or comeback he kept saying was "Don't touch yourself." This was randomly he was saying it and all the time. I told him that I thought that was some of his worst advice ever. So, I told a friend of mine this story, thinking he would see the funny I saw. He goes, "Ewe, that's dirty." And I just thinking to myself, not being in junior high or anything, Do these people think that the idea of self-satisfaction is actually dirty?

Ok. So, it has been a really long time since I posted. But, I got a job working with a couple of my friends. I really like the people I meet there too. It is a resturant that is just a fun place. I also have a new crush which is great because the other one had absolutely no hope. But, I do not even know his last name. But, I can't help it. I have even started day-dreaming about him. Let's stick to calling it dreaming. Oh well. Hopefully working together will be enough for a little while.

So, I haven't posted to this journal in several weeks. I'm wasn't sure why. So, I spent some time trying to figure out what the point of this is suppose to be as to find something to post about. Not that there was any resolution to the question. But, I have more and more that is how a lot of problems seem to end. I heard a quote the other day that sounded a lot like that except better. About, how the end of some problems is just the question.

So, there is a guy who plays for Detroit NFL team is named, J. Loshman.
I sware when I read it I thought it said Josh Lyman.
Interesting? Maybe not.

Ok, so I am reading A Midsummer Night's Dream for a book report. While I do get to choose my book, IT IS STILL A BOOK REPORT. Can I even remember the last time I did a book report? No. That is probably due to the fact that I am not in primary school. I am so about to drop my stupid english class for duel enrollment. But, yeah. Sorry about that. So, I am reading this and I have decided that he was either crazy or constantly on drugs. I mean it is interesting, no doubt, but more than a little insane. This is going to be an interesting and difficult read.

"Do you think you have to be crazy to create something powerful?"

Does anyone else think Carlos Jacott looked like Aaron Sorkin tonight when Ricky and Ron were talking to Danny?

HOLY HELl! I know have hugh problems. That was the most amazing thing I have ever seen. I litterally gall-uped  around my house afterward.HOLY HELL!

Ok, so I am already apologizing for posting about something this stupid. But, since I am back at the high school, I have seemed to fall back into the whole school girl crush thing. The object of my affection is the funniest, nicest person I know. However, he has been going out with this other girl for two months who, as he says, "has been in 'love' with since he met her." She is a complete bitch to me, which could because she might know that I like him. But, still there is no reason for her to act like that. I would never ever say anything to him about my stupid school girl crush because i would much rather hang out with him as friends then be all awkward and never see him again. Although, it has almost gotten to a point where I don't even want to hang out with him because there is nothing I can do about it. But, who knows!?

Boston Legal kick so much butt! It was half past I didn't think there was going to end up being any reference to being a Democrat and then Schmit completely pulled through for me. The whole "It is legal to control what happens to any part of our body. Well, in most states." I love it! And then, it was almost over and I really didn't think they were going to break down the fourth wall at all. But, of coarse I was wrong. Alan with "Sometimes it feels like I am playing a recurring roll on a tv show." I love David E. Keeley!! He rocks so hard.

I don't understand a lot. The sheer number of things I know I don't understand is actually quite a mind boggling ides. But, right now, I am focused on the fact that I do not understand romantic relationships, you know, at all. It seems to me every relationship, even between happy people, is just the picking of a person to put up with your shit. And, it last as long as both of you can put up with each others pointless daily drama. Seriously, I know this is not a question that has the answer of A or B but rather it has a million answers or more.  I am just at a lost of seeing the point at all. Is it that we as people think we are more comfortable with our own crap when we are also dealing with someone else's? I mean I am not so cynical to think all of "love" and definitely not life is differing degrees of crap. But, as humans, can we truly not experience our full potential as people with out the other person?

Ok, just a couple of things:
GO DAME!!
Go Florida!!
Go OSU!!!!!!!
That is all.

Neuroticism	21
Extraversion	76
Openness To Experience	46
Agreeableness	41
Conscientiousness	79

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